So…

Let’s pretend I’ve been busy. You know, too busy to even remember I have a blog. Yeah, that bad.

Plus I have been sick, quite a little depressed and very very confused for the past few weeks.
I have been thinking of quitting my job for a while now. What’s been keeping me is have absolutely no plan. I mean nothing, zilch, zero. I have tried every single idea that has come into my head but nothing’s worked out so far. The ideas I didn’t shoot down aren’t materializing in any way. My only remaining options are a) To stay at this job that I have grown to hate, plus I’m bored or b) to go back home i.e until I get another job or I think of another plan.

I want neither.

I went home this weekend and just got a taste of option a). I didn’t like it. At all.

I mean I’m feel rejuvenated and all, physically that is but staying here isn’t just for me either.
So now I have a few more days to type up my first resignation letter. Wait, I’ll just google that.

I went home thinking my folks would tell me  what to do. You know, after explaining aaaaalll the gory details of my ’situation’. But they left the decision to me. I thought they would just make a decision for me and order me to execute all the details to the letter like they have all my life but no, they told me to do whatever it is I thought was best and they would support me. What?

Is it just me or is it that my life just sucks sometimes?

Please let me

I am  trying

To just live this life

At least survive the day

But when everything keeps hitting

From every side

Just maintaining my foothold

Takes every ounce of strength

That I don't even have

And here I am just trying to believe

Maybe I'll just live today

And then see how it goes

And maybe I'll make it to the next day

I'll see when I get there

For now I just need to find my next step.

At it

The key is to keep believing

Even when it seems like nothing is happening, or changing

Because its not the end result, as important as it is,

Its the process of learning, not giving up, doing everything to survive

That really matters, in the end

In the end, looking back,

We see how we’ve changed, grown, become better

So keep on believing, even if the result takes too long

To come, or never comes

Keep at it.