Nothing

My graduation is coming up in a few days which means I’ll officially be out of school at the end of this month. If logic serves me right I should excited about it. You know, jumping around, making plans, what am I going to wear…blah.
I’m not.
I dont feel anything.In short, I’m just there.
Just waiting for the day to come and go.

I’m also supposed to start grad school. I also feel nothing about that. Clearly coz I haven’t even registered at any college or for any course. I’m not even sure if I should just do a general Masters degree or which field to specialise in. what if I choose a certain field and in the future it becomes irrelevent(that is short term for the ICT field,extremely short term)
That , I would just sum up as confusion.
I want to start grad school this year,not next year and the aplication window for A LOT of colleges is already closed. I dont know if that would be possible this year.
I want to scream!!